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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2005|03:12 am]
All Stars Eventually Fade...


Forget all the old shit.

I love my life again <3


Updates tomorrow when I'm on my way to Whistle 5 in Philly...

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Someone Save Me. [Apr. 2nd, 2005|02:22 pm]
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I cant stop crying.. I just cant stop... Please just someone put me out of my misery...

I'm like a leaking faucet... I just cant seem to get myself under control.

Last night was just.. horrid. I should have just stayed home. I mean I adore the people who I hung out with and it wasn't because of them the night was so horrible. Its just that why did I think I would have a good time going to his party? Was I absolutely out of my mind? I know he really wanted me there, however, I wish I would have JUST STAYED HOME. I wish I knew why I didnt.. instead I payed 20$ just to basically feel like shit. Yeah.. Eryn you have a comp.. April Fools!

The whole time I felt like my heart was in my throat and that I was going to throw up. I kept myself together though, wanting to hide in the corner and cry, but I faught off that urge and just attempted to drink myself into somewhat happiness. Which half worked I suppose. I made it through the night without breaking down. Not that anyone would have noticed anyway. Most my friends were so fucked up they were completely incoherent, so I was basically.. alone most of the night, except for the occasional new person introducing themselves to me, but no one really caught my interest all that much.

And then of course.. I walk out of the building.. and its raining, why did it have to rain? Memories assulted my mind so clearly that I almost fell over. I could almost see myself sitting on my car, soaking wet and crying my eyes out, I wanted to cry then and there but I didnt, I just put my head down and headed to the subway, alone.

 I met up with some Long Island kids, which made the journey home a little less depressing and somewhat kept me sane..

Now that I'm home. I'm a disaster. I just want someone here, I feel so completely alone...

I dont know why I have been feeling like this lately, it wasnt just last night... All week I have been on the verge of tears all the time.. I cant explain it. I keep telling myself these feelings will pass and that I will start to feel like myself again soon. I think as soon as I calm down I'm going to call Chino.. god I miss him with all my heart, i truley love that boy.  He always makes me feel 1000x better.

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(no subject) [Mar. 9th, 2005|12:23 pm]
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barenaked ladies - testing 1, 2, 3 :: urbnmix.net

I'm obsessed.. <3

This song is one of my absolute favorites kinda reflects how i feel as of late..

Yeah so i have bleach in my hair.. doing a patch underneath.. its nice and orange/yellow.. lol :)
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So.. drifting along... [Mar. 5th, 2005|12:20 pm]
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[mood |uncomfortableuncomfortable]

I applied for a promotion at work. It means I'll have to work in a different dorm, but the money is better and the job is easier, so I think its worth it.

I really feel like I'm just drifting along in my life lately.. and I probably am. I feel so usless lately. I should probably update more. It might help my mood....

I just feel like something is missing. Like I'm watching and waiting for SOMETHING.. I just dont know what...

Here are some pictures of me .. considering I've been to lazy to post them lately.... Enjoy! <3

I'm sorry for the way I amCollapse )

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I'm sorry for the way I am.... [Feb. 9th, 2005|11:27 am]
All Stars Eventually Fade...


Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

* Dedicated to WAC*
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Sorry Guys.. [Feb. 9th, 2005|09:25 am]
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I've been addicted to MYSPACE (http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=848767&Mytoken=20050209062614) So I havent been writing all that much on here.. soooooooo sorry.. :) Ill get back into the swing of things eventually..

Right now I'm just drifting along..
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Yeah its been a while but anyway.... [Jan. 21st, 2005|07:16 pm]
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White girls can get weave too :)Collapse )

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(no subject) [Dec. 9th, 2004|11:26 pm]
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Hair CUT!


AfterCollapse )

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Lets do the Time Warp AGAIN! [Dec. 5th, 2004|08:24 pm]
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I had an absolutely amazing time at Time Machine last night in Queens..

Although I treked the long journey all by my lonesome.. it was well worth it.. I saw tons of people I havent seen in ages.. and I basically just had an absolute blast.. this party just reminded me why I love raving.. *le'sigh*

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ODB.. [Nov. 14th, 2004|12:19 pm]
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[mood |crazycrazy]

Poor ODB.. man was a mess..


This is my last memory of him (*beware its x-rated*)Collapse )

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